Today I've been sick, so I stayed home from work. Mostly, I slept, but in between I read through my journals from 2006 and 2007 and then organized and recorded my spending for October and November. Both were bittersweet activities.

I have changed a great deal in a brief time. In some fundamental way, I died. So much in life altered all at once; my brain couldn't keep up. All its old patterns, disrupted. And this is good. What an opportunity to build good, godly habits in a vacuum!

When a situation won't change, the only solution is to ask God to mold me to match. "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things will be added unto you."

Only during the last week and a half have I begun to listen to music again. Makes sense. Music is like distilled emotion. It would have to be the last thing regained.

I am definitely not my old self. I feel like a stranger to me. I think I will have to spend the next few years getting reacquainted.  ¶ 1:46 PM