Life of Pride
Sunday, May 27, 2007
What is this resting thing? I am so bad at it.
I think it is where a person does what she wants to do.
You mean I can lie by the side of the pool & suntan & read?
Yes.
You mean it is OK to watch an entire season of Heroes in two days?
Yes.
What about computer games?
Yes.
But what about this twitchy urge to schedule my days into chunks and begin an in-depth project? I feel like a bad person.
You are lying to yourself. So long as you are spending plenty of time with God, you are all right. If you wrote anything right now, it would be terrible anyway. Stop stressing. Just rest.
But what about being a writer? What if I never write anything good?
You're only 23. Give it time.
But -
...
You've never rested in your life, have you?
No, I guess not. We always did schoolwork straight through summer, and I was always working for Mom and Dad too. We never went on vacation.
It's part of your problem with control, isn't it? You always want to be doing and fixing.
That could be it. Pastor Stain at church today told me he has the same sin area. It's definitely a problem with trust. Maybe I should just sit back and see what God can teach me from resting.
Sounds good. You probably don't even know how tired you are right now. Take two weeks. It could make a big difference.
OK. But you just wait! Second half of June, things'll be different!
OK. Seeya then, workaholic!
I think it is where a person does what she wants to do.
You mean I can lie by the side of the pool & suntan & read?
Yes.
You mean it is OK to watch an entire season of Heroes in two days?
Yes.
What about computer games?
Yes.
But what about this twitchy urge to schedule my days into chunks and begin an in-depth project? I feel like a bad person.
You are lying to yourself. So long as you are spending plenty of time with God, you are all right. If you wrote anything right now, it would be terrible anyway. Stop stressing. Just rest.
But what about being a writer? What if I never write anything good?
You're only 23. Give it time.
But -
...
You've never rested in your life, have you?
No, I guess not. We always did schoolwork straight through summer, and I was always working for Mom and Dad too. We never went on vacation.
It's part of your problem with control, isn't it? You always want to be doing and fixing.
That could be it. Pastor Stain at church today told me he has the same sin area. It's definitely a problem with trust. Maybe I should just sit back and see what God can teach me from resting.
Sounds good. You probably don't even know how tired you are right now. Take two weeks. It could make a big difference.
OK. But you just wait! Second half of June, things'll be different!
OK. Seeya then, workaholic!
Comments:
Congratulations on graduating Sarah! Since you're resting now, you must have time to talk. Please call me. I was looking forward to talking to you one Sunday afternoon almost a month ago, and haven't heard from you. --Jessica Morman
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