Life of Pride
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Waiting, waiting... still waiting... But the end is drawing nearer. I can feel events culminating.
I have to make my decision about grad school by April 15. I won't know about whether I have a job here at PHC, however, until the end of the month. Also, I have only heard from the University of Missouri-Columbia's Journalism program so far. UVA's M.F.A. in Creative Writing will let me know by April 2.
It would be hard for me to leave this area of Virginia right now. I have much to hold me here. More than that, new & cool things are developing. My movie project mentor is planning to create five low-budget films here over the next three years, and he is especially interested in involving PHC students and alumni. I want to be a part of this. And there are other reasons, too...
But, as my parents counseled me last week, I have to be willing to go anywhere and do anything. God requires that surrender from me. And further, this week I began reading I Corinthians again, and I found these verses:
And in this confidence I was minded to come unto you before, that ye might have a second benefit; and to pass by you into Macedonia, and to come again out of Macedonia unto you, and of you to be brought on my way toward Judaea. When I therefore was thus minded, did I use lightness? Or the things that I purpose, do I purpose according to the flesh, that with me there should be yea yea, and nay nay? But as God is true, or word toward you was not yea and nay. For the Son of God, Jesus Christ, who was preached among you by us, even by me and Silvanus and Timotheus, was not yea and nay, but in him was yea. For all the promises of God in him are yea, and in him Amen, unto the glory of God by us. ~ II Cor. 1:15-20
Paul is saying that he doesn't make his decisions by human rationality, weighing everything back and forth, yes and no, doubting and tossing. Like Jesus, he submits: "Yes Lord, whatever you will, so I shall do." In him was yea. That is how I must be as well at this crucial point in my life. So I pray that God's will may be clear, exactly when I need to know it. And that time is approaching quickly.
I just wish I knew... but no, I can't say it.
I have to make my decision about grad school by April 15. I won't know about whether I have a job here at PHC, however, until the end of the month. Also, I have only heard from the University of Missouri-Columbia's Journalism program so far. UVA's M.F.A. in Creative Writing will let me know by April 2.
It would be hard for me to leave this area of Virginia right now. I have much to hold me here. More than that, new & cool things are developing. My movie project mentor is planning to create five low-budget films here over the next three years, and he is especially interested in involving PHC students and alumni. I want to be a part of this. And there are other reasons, too...
But, as my parents counseled me last week, I have to be willing to go anywhere and do anything. God requires that surrender from me. And further, this week I began reading I Corinthians again, and I found these verses:
And in this confidence I was minded to come unto you before, that ye might have a second benefit; and to pass by you into Macedonia, and to come again out of Macedonia unto you, and of you to be brought on my way toward Judaea. When I therefore was thus minded, did I use lightness? Or the things that I purpose, do I purpose according to the flesh, that with me there should be yea yea, and nay nay? But as God is true, or word toward you was not yea and nay. For the Son of God, Jesus Christ, who was preached among you by us, even by me and Silvanus and Timotheus, was not yea and nay, but in him was yea. For all the promises of God in him are yea, and in him Amen, unto the glory of God by us. ~ II Cor. 1:15-20
Paul is saying that he doesn't make his decisions by human rationality, weighing everything back and forth, yes and no, doubting and tossing. Like Jesus, he submits: "Yes Lord, whatever you will, so I shall do." In him was yea. That is how I must be as well at this crucial point in my life. So I pray that God's will may be clear, exactly when I need to know it. And that time is approaching quickly.
I just wish I knew... but no, I can't say it.
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I have to be willing to go anywhere and do anything
According to Kierkegaard, Purity of Heart is "to will one thing". Yet he also, at one point, believed that in order to truly have his g/f, he needed to give her up. So he dumped her. And she never came back.
Was he responding to Hegel's statement, "I am the combat" ?
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According to Kierkegaard, Purity of Heart is "to will one thing". Yet he also, at one point, believed that in order to truly have his g/f, he needed to give her up. So he dumped her. And she never came back.
Was he responding to Hegel's statement, "I am the combat" ?
