Is it wrong to want to do something huge with one's life? I suspect it can easily be wrong, if only because of the feelings such desires create in my heart. They stretch my mind outside myself. Time dilates, and I feel myself looking through history, both forward and back, with deep sorrow. I greatly admire C.S. Lewis as a writer, and some day I want to finish my Erthe trilogy and have people think, when they are done reading, "That's as good as Narnia!" But I'm not there yet, nor do I know for sure if I will ever be. When I start thinking about being that good, I pull myself farther ahead in my life than I should be thinking. I suspect that many people who have done great things didn't realize, even when they'd accomplished them, that they were great. These people were merely completing their daily tasks. For example, I was just reading about a lady who has published 600+ articles and numerous books. I seriously doubt she was tallying them up as she went. They were the assignments that she completed every day. Lewis, when he was a kid and a young adult, probably never suspected how many assignments God would lay on his heart to write. He hoped, dreamed, and prepared his skills, so that he was ready when the time came. That's all I can do as well.

I'm not sure why I was thinking about that. Probably because I'm listening to the Narnia soundtrack again. It always calls to my heart.

In other news, tomorrow I begin my "fat-loss challenge" at the gym. It's an 8-week competition, in which everyone who signs up tries to lose more fat than everyone else. Pretty straightforward. I want to win. I have about 15 #s I theoretically could lose, but that's a little much for 8 weeks. That would mean a deficit of around 1000 calories a day. So I'm aiming for 10 #s of scale weight. That's only a deficit of 625 calories per day. Supposedly, according to FitDay.com, my basal + lifestyle calorie use before exercise is around 2600. I think it's lying, though, because I would definitely be losing weight then. I've lost maybe 3-4 pounds in the last 7 weeks. This is half a pound a week, or 1750 calories. That's a deficit of 300 calories a day, not counting Sundays ('cause I eat more then). That can be attributed solely to exercise. So the amount I've been eating is approximately equal to my calorie use pre-exercise. This is about 2000 calories per day, which makes more sense.

So, in short, if I cut my intake to 1800 calories per day and exercise twice more in the week, that should just about do it. Not too terribly hard, and I certainly won't be deprived. :) We'll see how it goes.  ¶ 10:20 AM