I gotta post. It's nearing that part of the summer a third of the way through when people post to their blogs less frequently, and when they do their posts are full of introspection. I'm full of introspection. I'm processing myself, my friends, and how we've all changed. Me, I stayed up until 2am last night reading through my journals of the last year and a half. And I got to talk to Christy on the phone Tuesday evening.

Who am I now, anyway? I'm a "ma'am" to the teenagers behind the counter at McDonald's. To the parents and elderly men at my Civil Air Patrol squadron, I am a colleague. I wear long skirts sometimes when I go into public, instead of jeans. Even my parents sense it. We don't argue when I need to drive myself someplace. I just go.

Who is this slightly solemn adult who has taken over my body? I feel decades old, instead of 21. I have to look in the mirror to remind myself that I am still young. How can a single year have made such a difference?

It was only last spring that I turned everything in my life, all my plans, over to God and bowed down to Him as Lord. Only last summer, I began to learn the importance of prayer and how God does answer. Just these past nine months, I found the blessing of putting people before schoolwork. Wisdom was and is my constant prayer.

God is so good to me, and I surely don't deserve it. In bowing me down to Him, He has been slowly teaching me to give in to earthly authorities too. He's been bending my stubborn head to His gentle yoke, and I love Him for it. I am filled with awe whenever I look at what He has done for me in such a small number of years.

I'd better leave it there, 'cause it's late and I'm gettin' tired. :)  ¶ 9:31 PM